I don't want you to rely on me ...you mean nothing to me, you are a nobody. At least I know I'm not the only CC member out there that you don't believe ...so it's all about you, not anyone else. Maybe you're the one with the chip on your shoulder who clearly struggles with interacting with CC members and struggling with believing what CC members say. That's a health condition YOU need to deal with, not anyone else. Nobody here can help you if you don't to help yourself ...another thing you clearly struggle with. Are you Autistic?