Loner-69

Maybe they're just trying to survive and make it as human beings and at the same time enjoy life as much as possible.

Maybe they don't want to.

Emotions are too spontaneous and real to be an act.If it is an act she needs to catch the next flight to Hollywood to become a star.

My girlfriend comes over today.Time to tell her all about RLC and CC.After she tells me how mentally ill I am,I have a big decisions to make.Like how many more years does she expect me to support her and her children before we live together.I think 12 years is long enough.Besides, I might have an opportunity for something better.Decisions,decisions,decisions.There's no fool like an old fool.

Kristy is alone on couch.

If Kami had a baby with Sergio she could remain in Barcelona permanently.Wouldn't be the first loveless marriage that ever happened.The only problem is, you end up hating yourself the rest of your life and taking it out on the kid.

John Lennon of the Beatles recorded the "Plastic Ono Band Album"while in Primal Therapy under Arthur Janov.The songs in the album make more sense if you know about Primal Therapy.Both he and Yoko Ono went through the therapy.

Maybe they need some new script writers for the soap opera.

I do give you credit for having the guts to read it.It was very painful for me to read.

What really gets confusing about this place is the fact the time in Barcelona is 7 hours ahead of where I live.Tend to get days and nights mixed up.

With each passing day I feel more and more like we are all part of a psychology study being conducted by three girls who are grad students working on their doctoral dissertations.A study of "The Abnormal Voyeuristic Behavior of Sexist Pigs" and they are using our comments to write their dissertations.How does it feel to be a little white rat,guys?

I had recommended Primal Therapy for several people at CC.I've reconsidered that.I don't think it would be a good match,since most of the people at CC are sexist and the majority of my therapists at the Primal Institute were beautiful,sexy women.

It's nice to fantasize though.Isn't that why everyone is here?Somewhere deep inside just hoping that fantasy becomes reality.If your reality was completely fulfilling you wouldn't be watching RLC either.Just the fact that we are all here proves our real lives are not complete.I see my girlfriend only once or twice a week.The rest of the week is empty.

He can't help it, he was born that way.

Bammer,a disgrace to Dr.Martin Luther King and the Black community.Great Black musicians(Ray Charles,BB King,Chuck Berry,Otis Reddinig.)Black Rappers are pieces of shit who use and degrade women.

Whatever,no proof.

Now that the apartment will be all Kristy's and Kami's,I think kristy should get out her stripper costumes and teach Kamila how to be a stripper in the living room. Could be just like the movie "Gypsy".Gypsy Rose Lee,the innocent and classy stripper.

I have no answer to that.But have question. Sinista and Norm P-Posted Up. REAL or GAME? I WANT TRUTH.

I'd like to lick those fingers.

If I were only thinking about my feelings and not concerned about hurting someone else,I would be making flight plans right now.

I don't have a good answer.If I do one thing I hurt one woman.If I do other thing I hurt other woman.Maybe I'll get lucky and someone will kill me then I won't have make a decision.

I guess that means I'm a coward.

I can't sleep tonight so I'm going to watch a made for tv movie entitled "The Mystery of Natalie Wood" on the internet.Hopefully,I'll fall asleep while watching.

Can't.Too confused,guilty and sad.