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For the record, so that the world knows where I stand. No one, absolutely no one has cut deeper in the flesh of this guy than I did! No one knows how to swing a hammer faster or harder than I do when it comes to taking down some creep who truly deserves my contempt. And you only have to look at my past post concerning Paul to know to what extent I detested this creep. I called him repugnant, repulsive, revolting. I said that he doesn't embrace or caress a woman but nuzzles his nose into her face like a dog and drools over her. You only have to look at my Pizza Boy scenario to see just how much I despised him. I could have chopped him up into little pieces and thrown him into some muddy river for all it mattered to me. So for the record, your not dealing with some sort of soft squeeze here. But even so, I am glad that I still have a heart, and can still find in me sympathy or pity when it is justified or merited. So let me explain for the last time what I saw that positively stunned me and made me feel as though I had been picking on a cripple. After the glorious fuck, leora decided that they would both take a bubble bath. She was as jubilant as could be, making little white beards on her face with the soap suds and playing with the rose peddles in a very childish, but adorable way. She was like a nine year girl with a helium balloon, laughing and playing and just all smiles. Then I looked at Paul as he sat there motionless, in almost a catatonic state, only slightly looking down at the water as if he didn't even know what he was doing there. And I thought to myself, this guy should be crowing like a rooster, he should be grinning from ear to ear, because in spite of everything he manage to make his Juliet happy again. She was no longer crying, no longer chastising him, was once a again for at least another day secured to him and she was for that moment for all to see in seventh heaven. Then it hit me,.. Not only does this guy have nothing in the way of sex appeal, or good looks, but on top of everything else there is something actually wrong with his mind. It does not matter whether it was brought about by drugs or something else. The point is he is not quite all there. He seemed very much like a little child. Then it all started to add up,.. A ten year old boy doesn't know how to be suave with a woman, doesn't know how to seduce or woo a woman, but is instead clingy and will stick his face close to his mother when he wants affection. And that is exactly what he does with Leora. He never initiates anything, instead it is always Leora who takes him by the hand if she wants to go out, or have a bubble bath, or whatever. Again the nature of a child. (Paul) So yes, I started to think that maybe this poor bastard just doesn't even know what the hell to do any more than a ten year old boy would. Now, as I've said before, I may be wrong in my sympathy for him in this. And frankly, I still find it extremely difficult to watch him. And maybe he is just an oaf and a ogre and all of what I had felt at that time when I first stated what I had said, is unfounded when it comes to him. I don't know just yet,.. I will soon. And while I can't find my way to like the guy, I just didn't want to add on to his misery. We all know he is bound to get hurt over Leora soon enough one day, so yes in some ways I do feel sorry for him. That's it, until I am convinced that he is just a pig, I'm going to hold off on butchering him.

To be fair about it, there is a lot of what Fabulous says that is true. So I'm not entirely sure if I wasn't somehow deceived by that strang moment when they both were in the bath tub. He didn't seem to really know where he was in some respects. Not trying to play doctor, but you couldn't miss both that vacant look and that very juvenile or childish manner in which he was just touching the bath water. Not something denoted of an adult. But then, sometimes he makes me wonder if this pity is unfounded in the way he almost seems to display a sort of 'I'm entitled attitude'. So, perhaps Fabulous is right, and my moment of compassion was misplaced. I just don't know yet. One things for sure, this thing between him and Leora is bound to end soon. And while she herself is very immature, she sure doesn't need another person who is in many ways irresponsible and childlike.

I don't know,.. Maybe it was just another one of his dumb founded looks that he's famous for. Maybe he doesn't suffer from some mental deficiency that would cause someone to take pity on him. If that's the fucking case, then fine, I was deceived by a look and a gesture of his that was so childlike, so inept, that I was deeply moved. As we all know, there relationship is bound to end soon. A not even Kiko on his worse day ever annoyed me to the extent that Paul has. I would actually shiver when he would kiss Leora. So if I was wrong,.. If somehow he did fool me for a moment, then fine, fuck him. And I'm beginning to think that maybe I was wrong to have felt such compassion for him, because one moment he seems completely helpless and childlike, and the next he's acting like he's the lord and manor of the house.

For what it's worth. If I should come to feel that I was mistaken by this truly pathetic sight I saw. Not just because he sat there so doleful with an absolutely blank look upon his face, but because it made sense to me just then why he seems to do everything so wrong. Maybe I'm wrong, but he just seemed to be almost in the same state that one might consider as being somewhat retarded. I'm not trying to be funny, but that's how it struck me. I felt as if I was poking fun at a somewhat retarded person. If I'm wrong, fine, then I'm wrong. But at the time, I was deeply moved by how incapable he might truly be.

Because I was convinced by what I saw while he and Leora were in the bath tub that he is not up to par mentally. He follows her around, and clings to her, just like a little boy. But I'm convinced that mentally he never really has risen much above just that in reality. Maybe I was wrong, but I just don't think that he is capable of being more than what he is. Anyway, I just badly for him at the time.

I know what you are saying. And in some ways I'm sure he will again annoy me or worse. But I saw a side to him today that was very revealing to me. And I am sure that a lot of what he does that we may consider stupid or clumsy and such is actually due to some form of mental deficiency. All I'm saying is that I felt sorry for him. I know that this situation between him and Leora will not last. And I also know that he will be crushed when that day comes. And what I saw today, which had nothing to do with his sexual failings, but just with his mental abilities, may be the reason why he is so uncouth or so unsophisticated in his ways, including all those things that did revolt me before. Again,.. I just felt sorry for him.

Because I myself have been so guilty of harboring such contempt and even loathing towards Paul, I just feel that I now must say these things. I was wrong to mock him so, though his ways did often irk me so before. Yet I have come to realize that he does seem to have certain mental problems, and that to expect him to respond or to react in a way that we ourselves might do, is probably more difficult for him. All I know is that we were not put on this earth to add to someone else's misery. And that there is no sense of joy that comes from watching someone else suffer within themselves. And that for all that I had said before, I now do hope that Paul will somehow be happy in life, and if nothing else will not look upon me at some later time as his enemy, nor as his tormentor. It stuck me hard while I watched him and Leora in that bath tub, and only then did I realize that he may not have the capacity to think or behave more like I suppose we would, and that perhaps it is not all his fault. And in this I will not add to his hurt or his pain. I know that we all have our faults,.. And for whatever is troubling him, I now wish him well, as I do with all of you. Your Friend, If you will have it so. David

Well she's happy again. Lucky for him she has such a short threshold, and is so easy to please.

Leora, get rid of the damn blanket, it's not thirty below outside, and we are paying for your rent!

Well they're swapping spit right now, and she is playing with his cock inside the tent. But that could spell trouble for him,.. so, like a drunk stumbling through a mine field, he better not fall down.

She has just gotten done kissing him, and she lays her head on his chest with a sweet smile. Honest, she's just a sweet little girl, and she just wants everything to be alright. Lucky for him, she doesn't ask for much as far as guys go. He really needs to change and figure it all out before it really is too late.

All kidding aside, Leora is very immature. She truly is like a twelve year old girl inside of a woman's body. She is also very insecure, and in her fantasy world, she wants everything to be perfect. That's why she knocks herself out to be a good homemaker, and also why she can't stand to see things broken or not working. Last night she actually had her little stuffed animal with her while she cried. It's also why Paul has lasted as long as he has with her, because intellectually they are both very immature and inexperienced as far as life itself goes. A more stable or mature woman wouldn't have a guy like Paul around, yet Leora keeps giving him chances on the hope that she can be happy with him.

Yeah,.. Time to retreat and call in for reinforcements.

Well I think we may be in for round three, as far as sex goes. Good luck champ.

Dan, I'm only saying what you already know. If she should go out alone, and sit in a café somewhere, the first time some guy gives her a look, Paul's dead.

Yes, I feel the same way.

What did you think of my pizza boy scenario Dan? It's under the Paul's Tent category. Wouldn't that be great!

But now shes snuggling back up to him,.. This guy has nine lives.

Yes he's embarrassed. And he is all but dead and buried now to her. Too bad, she herself would have been nice to watch. Unlike Kiko and Nora, she actually liked to have sex,.. But we have the wrong guy playing the lead in this show.

Here's what I'd like to see,.. I'd like to see her send this idiot out for something that would take a couple of hours. Then call up some pizza joint, and if the guy who show's up is anything half way decent,.. I'd like to see her pull him inside by the lapels and then point to the cameras and say,.. "See that, the whole world is watching, and if that doesn't bother you, I'm yours!" LOL,.. That would do it.

Snaky if you or anyone else can translate what she is saying, it would be very interesting. Look, I'm not young anymore, so it has nothing to do with jealousy for me,.. I have my memories and some of them are pretty good. It's just that I can't stand to see something so fragile being handled so clumsily. If he need Viagra, get Viagra! But he also needs to learn how to act like a man. I think that he's so afraid of failing that it dooms him to do just that. I think that he is so dull witted, unimaginative, boring, predictable and bland in his ways with her, that she is getting pretty close to calling it quits with him.

He is revolting. He doesn't embrace or caress, instead he clings and all but drools over her face when their being intimate. I almost feel sorry for the poor bastard, but it shouldn't be that difficult for him to figure out, and change in his mannerism and demeanor. He just comes off as desperate. And no girl likes that.

Right now I wish we had someone to translate what Leora is saying to him,.. It does sound very good, as he takes it all in with that spaced out look on his face. Duh? As bad as Kiko is, and he is a droll,.. This guy is a real maggot. And Leora needs her head examined. One minute she's kissing him,.. Ugh, and the next she's chastising him and showing a lot of scorn. Make up your mind Leora!

Well there he is again hiding both him and Leora under the thick blanket while he fondles her. Hey Paul, I've got a great idea for you. Why not build a tent in the bedroom and you can place the bed inside of it, that way no one will be able to see you at all.

At the end of yet another abysmal night the girl write in their diaries. Nora: Dear Diary, Oh if only I could steal the courage or had more nerve,.. Sash: If only she would just let me know somehow, I would gather her nectar from her budding flower.